do i know the truth?

ok... entry ni agak sedey+emo. specially made for U.

to u...

u tau x? everyday, i always think about u. wat r u doing... r u fine o not... who r u with... have u eaten or not... u jz keep lingering in my mind. i jz can't stop thinking about u... i'm hoping u'll thinking d same too.

BUT,

i keep it all by myself. i promised myself not to say anything from that day. and still i keep my promise.

u lame giler senyap. i mcm giler jek. msg x. kol lg la x kn... xpe. i xkesah p0n. aritu kebetulan u msg i, yg i tgh sedey. xperlu la kn i cite kat sni... u & i je tau. n u said u're sorry cz u're too bz with ur proposal & asignments... it's okay. i do understand. xpe la... kalo i x g pinjam kamus u tu kn, mst u lgsung xkisah psal i dh kn... u slalu ckp i slalu pk yg buruk-buruk psal u. tp, u yg xnk ckp yg sbnrnyer. xckp ape yg ade dlm fikiran u & dlm hati u tu... u jz xnk ckp evrything to me. why ey?

u tau x... xtau la kan... myb Allah nk tunjuk ape yg blaku... u g KL ngn dat gal kn... u g amek baju kls u ngn dat gal kn... kalo kwn u xikot, mst u g b'dua ngn dat gal kn... 'so sweet'. i ty u g ngn sp tp u jwb g ngn dak pompuan kls u kn... smpai ati ey x gtau... u takut i marah u ke? tp at least gtau. "np u perlu gtau i? pdhal kite xde pape pon." hmm.... jujur itu perlu. i told u evrything about him. np u xbley wat yg sm?? cmne i tau u g ngn dat gal?? tgerak hati i bebaru ni utk wujudkn balek blog ni. tetibe tgn gatal nk tgk blog u... (evryday mmg i tgk blog u.) n tetibe dat gal u punye follower. i p0n tgk la blog dy. wah! mmg tkeluar la smua kn... bukan tu je.

ingt x yg 19hb Mac tu i bg msg u kate i g holiday kat kL. n instead u reply kat i kate u dh tgk merong. i marah cz u xtggu i p0n nk tgk merong. i ckp kat u dh 3x i ckp kat u nk tgk mer0ng ngn u. i wan't to make dat story special for u & me. n u bley suh i tgk sorg2. i trase. mmg. trase sgt.

dlm blog u tulis u tgk kat 1 utama. kul 12.30pm. ari ke-4. yg u msg i p0n u ckp u tgk kat 1utama. tp bile i ty, u ckp u copy entry tu dr blog org laen (plagiat ye. xbaek tau.). n u g tgk kat 1utama tu ari ke-3. i try gak search kat plagiat nye web, tp kuar blog u je. i dunno la whether it's true or not.. n guess wat? i dh tgk blog dat gal n dat gal ad wat entry psal dy g tgk mer0ng tu... siap upload lg tiket... same venue, date & time as stated in ur blog.. so, it become slightly suspicious. i'm sorry.

u pnh ty i psal someone... u ty, kalo seseorg gal tu ade bf tp dy mharapkan pd org laen, is that wrong? i jwb, yup. it is wrong sbb dy xjujur ngn bf dy. n org laen tu xpatot mlayan gal tu cz dy sndri tau yg dat gal ade bf. u said, "dat someone jz pity dat gal." i know u were talking about dat gal. i know... kalo pity je kn, np u bley kuar byk kali ngn dat gal even u bz?? np ngn i xbley? u still have d heart for her isn't it?? myb i know... myb i don't.

do u remember? those days when we r so close... close enough to be together until 'he' came back. i'm still hoping for u though. i refused to be with him because i want to be with u, something that can't be certain. i break my own principle jz to be with u. principle?? my principle?? "dun hope for something that is not certain for myself". yup. i broke dat principle.

PATHETIC right??